This weekend, after a heavy rain storm in Long Beach, I decided to take my dog out to a park and spend some alone time. Luckily, the park was deserted, and my dog, Mocha ran off in the distance keeping herself entertained. I came upon this changing Maple leaf on the floor and it stopped me dead in the track.
I looked at the Maple leaf closely, and it dawned on me that this leaf represented the transformation that I was feeling deep inside. Finally my personal life has settled into a deep foundation, and I'm the happiest I felt in a long time. This maple leaf however, reminded me of my career which has taken a back seat until I figured out who I am and what I want to do. I traded in a fast, forward, glamourous job, that gave me a lot of opportunities, for a ho-hum position that gave me amazing benefits, time off, security, but didn't fulfill the creative void that keeps me challenged.
Luckily for me, I do have a choice, and I am very lucky that I even have a creative job. Getting paid to "Play with Crayolas" as my hubby says, is an amazing gift and he tells me that I'm very lucky. But like the leaf, I feel like I'm withering away even though I'm still green in the middle.
Like a lot of people who have a path to their careers and passions, I wish I had the clarity. I ask myself, what was I meant to do in this life?
I hope for a greener spring.
1 comment:
First of all, the leaf is absolutely gorgeous!! Secondly, thank you for sharing. I often feel very lost, especially now with where my life and health are. We have been friends for almost our entire lives, and I hope tobe able to say that in 60 years. You are one of the most amazing people I know, and I have faith that you still have tons of amazing journey's ahead!!!! I can't wait tobe a part of some of them with you!!
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